Since I don't have internet at my place till now, I have to walk to UW to use the wireless. Because of an incident, I read my past diary today...and i suddenly realized that i've changed a lot these years. I used to be really energetic and out-going when I was in high school or even when I just enterred university. I love Fairytail a lot and I read lots of manga. I was always full of hope and energy. I never cared about ppl's words. Confident, Positive, Laugh a lot. I did feel really sad and helpless when ricky left me, but i think he's not the only cause. I changed a lot also because i think it is the way of becoming mature and that were the words that some very important ppl told me. BUT AM I REALLY BECOME MATURE now??? Or i am just still like a child trying to handle everything and get upset when I can't reach something? I don't know. lots things like a puzzle that i have to solve and find a solution myself. there are ppl i love and jobs i want down there, but sometimes i am lost. if that's a dream, i have to confess that i am so scared that i might fail to reach it. Just have to keep my dream up and fight, i guess. =)